It all comes crashing down on me!
I've been doing great for around two weeks now, not feeling hurtful at all, no crying and I've been just fine and this time I've honestly felt fine.
But that decided to leave me this week. My bike got stolen again, the shoes that I ordered last MONTH hasn't arrived yet and I need new winter shoes because my old ones are falling apart.
And lately I've felt like no one really cares about what happens to me. If I'm here or away for several weeks it wouldn't matter, no one would probabaly wonder where I was anyway. My parents seem to have no interest or belief in me, the only time they show any interest is when they want to point out what I should do and shouldn't do.
Friends seems to become acquintences instead, and I'm having a hard time connecting with people, though I want to.
Tomorrow I'm going to have private lessons in math with an old math teacher, because I failed a actually very easy algebra test. I'm as dumb as a rock.
I broke down in art class today, and no one wondered if I was okay. My friends flat out ignored me.
What am I doing wandering around thinking I matter, I don't. There's plenty of proof for that.